My heart is like a sponge at times. My pride and love grew for my husband while he was gone. It amazes me that I could go for 7 months without seeing him, feeling him and hearing him breath and still have my love grow… but it did.
Before he left I might not have been the greatest wife. I might of let cleaning slide… I might of not had a dinner prepared each night – I don’t know, things that you sort of take for granted – things that should be routine but I let putting things off be my routine. So, when my husband came home one day and told me that he had to go on an Individual Augmentation my world came to a crashing halt. Not only was I devastated that we’d be apart for months, but he was also going to a war zone. So many emotions flooded me and I couldn’t knock out of my head that I was being taught a lesson. God put this plan into action to kick my rear into gear. I vowed that night that I’d try with all of my being to be a better wife. Not only to do the big things like cleaning, cooking and laundry – but better at all things like going out of my way to do the little things… complements, extra hugs, tidying up, etc… I researched on the internet things to implement right away. One of the big things was not to be in a bad mood when he came home – no matter how the kids acted all day. Two was not to complain or nag. Three was to soak up his attention and not push him away like we would have time later for those things… b/c sometimes time does not happen. About a month ago I started reading a book by Shaunti Feldhahn called, “For Women Only“. This book outlines some major things that women do not know or realize about their men. The major one being that a man would rather feel alone and unloved than inadequate or disrespected. To a man, respect = love.
Obviously when two have been separated for half a year there will be some things to get used to again. I’ve been making all of the decisions about our girls, house, yard, finances – life. I gladly want to let him in and make all of these decisions together. There is also the issue of the girls – would they be stand-offish or shy? I think they remember how much daddy loves them too (and it didn’t hurt that we talked about him NON-STOP, looked at pictures and watched the daddy movie that he made before he left.) and picked up right where they left off. I feel the same about our love. I know that my heart grew daily – you can read about that in this blog! I pined away for him trying to remember his scent. Now I just have to lean over and I can take a whiff.
We can and we do take so many things for granted in this life. No earthly thing lasts forever – but as long as I’m alive I will devoted my entire self to my husband. I will treasure each moment that we have together. I am reminded that the Lord gave us to each other as help mates. He picked our marriage from the beginning of time and molded who we are to fit with each other. He completes me. He makes me smile, laugh and enjoy life. I am reminded by that love when I see my two beautiful girls.
Thank you Lord for the reminders. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for blessing me with my family.